Curiosity & Vanity

I have not personally been top notch for a while now. I’m an over achiever, but unfortunately for 6 months now I have done nothing about it. I keep shut , sit and listen. I do not allow myself to reach the potential I could have reached. I have not allowed myself to exuberate my confidence in the way that I generally do. I have not given myself credit for that which I should.

There are many, many things that I would like to do. Many shoes I wish to fill. When my favorite teacher confides in me and tells me he doesn’t know who I am anymore, and what’s gotten into me off late - that’s when I know that I have shunned who I really am from the rest of the world. I have been so distracted in my own little world that I seem to be unable to see the beauty in the littler details of life. I do not make use of all that I should. 

I have let myself slide. I need to pick myself up and brush my worries off my shoulders - if not now, then I have no idea when. 

I thrive for music. I live through music and speech, and to me, the most saddening thing is when a legend passes away. With none other than MJ, followed by Amy Winehouse, Christopher Hitchens and now the one and only, most celebrated and highest award winning Whitney Houston.

Covered by many - girls yearned to hit the notes she did. They were all good enough - but nobody, not a soul could spark up the magic Whitney conjured. Dead at 48, with no particular cause of death? It seems only legends die young - I may not be the most religious person to live but I think it’s safe to say that God really does take away the best, earliest. 

It’s a pity to know we won’t have her voice reverberated through the walls of the Grammys, the Emmys, the Billboard Music Awards, and the many other ceremonies that she so rightfully had twisted round her little finger. You will be missed, Ms.Houston, but like MJ, like Freddy Mercury, like James Brown, like John Lennon and the many other countless vocalists to be taken away early, ripping soul from the face of the earth, you shall live through your music. 
This is a lament to one of the most beautiful women of all time. 

Rest in Peace.  [August 9, 1963 - February 11,2012]

I am so clever, that sometimes I don’t understand a single word of what I am saying.